Sunday, May 12, 2013

Fear is a Shape Shifter

Three years ago as a requirement for a school communications class I began this blog.   

The blog is still appropriately titled "Erika's Endeavors," along with the intent of the blog, to improve on my writing skills and focus on my growth as a person.  

One thing in life we cannot escape is change, yet change does not guarantee growth.  True growth only comes when we reflect on those changes which surround our decisions, successes, relationships, emotions, failures and most of all the changes which are beyond our control.   

The real catalyst of reintroducing myself to this blog, is to ignite my passion for writing and commit to it on a regular basis.  

Why commit to this?  

Well, yes because I enjoy it.  It holds a therapeutic purpose in enhancing my creativity, expansion of thoughts, and clarity of mind.  Yet, consciously recommitting to our work, if that’s truly what we wish to do, restores our sense of power.

The problem I realized that has held me back as a writer is fear.  It's scary to put your thoughts into words then share with other people.  In fact, it's TERRIFYING.   

As a writer, you tend to become caught between "thought" and "action," while fear often preempts action.
Then, I had an epiphany.  The same stumbling block in my writing was effecting the quality of other aspects in my life.   I am capable of more in love, life, passion and talents.  Giving in to fear is selling myself short, and life is too short to do so. 

Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways.  ~Stephen Vincent Benét

So first and foremost, I must write for myself.  Nothing worth doing does not contain an element of fear, and although certain things in life are beyond my control, I can certainly embrace that which I can control and make my life much richer.  The sky is the limit!

So Back to Erika's Endeavors.....The definition and the force behind my blog. 

Noun 1. endeavor - a purposeful or industrious undertaking (especially one that requires effort or boldness); 

1. A conscientious or concerted effort toward an end; an earnest attempt.
2. Purposeful or industrious activity; enterprise.
v. en·deav·ored, en·deav·or·ing, en·deav·ors 

To attempt (fulfillment of a responsibility or an obligation, for example) by employment or expenditure of effort: endeavored to improve the quality of life.

To work with a set or specified goal or purpose.

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